So I just came home from the airport. Matt has left at last minute notice to Italy for two weeks. Viviance Europe has gone bankrupt and a client is willing to pay him to finish up the project he was in the middle of.

The question of course is: how do I feel about all this?

And the answer all week has been: I don’t know.

I’ve discovered something else about marriage– you’re hardly ever alone. The voices in my head have been replaced with Matt’s external voice and presence.

How do I feel about all this?

I don’t know.

I miss the voices in my head. I guess I don’t need them anymore for companionship, but they were helpful in sorting out feelings and making decisions. I had myself to talk things through, my own sounding board.

Sometimes I just need to be alone. I’ll miss Matt while he’s in Italy, but I’m glad that I get this time alone to sort things out by myself.