I’m not very happy right now, and I don’t like it. I’m tired of this everpresent feeling of doom. I can’t keep up with current technological trends; I feel non-unique; I’m worried about money; and I can’t make plans.

I’m really really unhappy and I have to change that now. I refuse to live in this state.

I discovered what blogs are today. We’re all the same, you know. I know that you sometimes feel unique, but surf for blogs. See how people cry out into the universe with their tiny voices. “Here I am! Here I am!” before falling to the ground, sobbing, “Here I am.” We’re all children seeking love, attention, approval…

Validation.

There is a quote by Stanley Kubrik which I recently discovered: “The most terrifying fact about the universe is not that it is hostile but that it is indifferent, but if we can come to terms with the indifference, then our existence as a species can have genuine meaning. However vast the darkness, we must supply our own light.”

I’m dwelling on morbid stuff…. I’ve got to crawl out of this funk.