I was 1cm dilated and 50% effaced at my obstestrician’s appointment last Wednesday. When the nurse told me, I started crying. Matt and I are so scared now that it is real and not just “Oh, we’re having a baby.” She’s on her way out, and we are going to be completely responsible for this little life. It’s terrifying. The nurse was saying, “This is so exciting” while I was crying, saying, “I want my mom.”

The nurse said that my doctor will probably induce me Thursday or Friday of next week after she returns from her vacation. So I have one week… one week before everything in my life completely changes.

And I will change. I changed after I got married… my personality changed quite drastically. Certain attributes that had been latent surfaced and other attributes faded into the background. And it’s going to happen again; it’s already started happening. Angel version 5.0 is about to be born into the world along with her daughter.

I’m so scared. I’m so glad that I will have my husband, my mom, and my sister with me. I’m so glad that I’m not alone.