I had an epiphany yesterday. Life is now and life is everything. I used to think “As soon as I finish the dishes, I’ll start my life,” or “As soon as the baby goes down for a nap, I’ll start my life,” or “As soon as I get the house clean, I’ll start my life.” But what I realized is that doing the dishes is life, feeding the baby her breakfast is life, cleaning the toilets is life. Life isn’t on hold while I do these things and then start up again when I do something I enjoy, like going to the park or eating a relaxing lunch with my family. Life is always.

Before I was impatient to get through the cleaning, hating every minute of it, because I wanted to get back to life. Now cleaning isn’t so bad. I no longer feel like I’m holding up my life to clean. It’s just part of life.

Hmmm… that wasn’t a very eloquent entry. Too bad I couldn’t think of better words to describe my realization. It really did make a difference. I don’t hate cleaning anymore.